fat is a feeling

An absolute crap feeling.
Once you feel it, you know you've gotta do something about it.

Its not about the kilos you've put on.

Everytime I make a trip back to KL, I'll come back gaining a couple of kilos.

I'm one of those people who weighs themselves every day.

In fact, I weigh myself a couple of times a day.

It makes me feel crap sometimes.

And I'm hoping it'll motivate me to get into a regime of getting fit.

But with wintry weather, I've been feeling more slack and all I want to do is just eat yummy food, snuggle under the blanket and sleep.

However, on days that I do exercise, I actually do feel good and alot more energetic.

But this dang lazy wintry feeling is so tempting that I give in to it most of the time.

Sigh.. I'm still dreaming of the days when I could sleep off my fat feeling and wake up feeling skinny.
I really need to wake up to reality!

quick trip home

As expected, I had a great time in KL.

I did so many things in 5 days and was so sleep deprived by the end of it.

My family and I even managed to squeeze in a quick one night trip to Penang.

Sorry peeps. Please ignore the italic yellow coloured words below. 
I'm just documenting what I did for memory sake.

29052013
*daddy collins dropped me off at perth airport
*mummy and kiko picked me up. They used the GPS and ended up at KLIA instead of LCCT.
*forgot to bring my IC with me (or rather, I misplaced it again) so kj immigration refused to let me renew my passport. rushed to shah alam to make a new IC and rushed to kj to make my passport. system down! can only collect on friday.
*Stopped at a new grocer at TTDI Plaza to get some food.
*my hair was so oily!! Cannot tahan!!! went for a wash and blow. Ahhhhh
*girls came over for dinner (secrets out!)
*drinks with primo and dhayang (TDH and d legends)

30052013
*picked up GPS from mummy's office and headed to shah alam to pick up my new IC.
*dropped off GPS
*tea with aunty marie and aunty nancy @ empire mall. went to aunty nancy's place for a bit and then to aunty's marie's. (always nice to catch up with them!)
*one utama to get shoes
*dinner at home with the family
*coffee with the girls @ starbucks (for the first time, shal and I were the first to arrive. and we were already 1hour late). we continued at maccas after starbucks closed.

31052013
*2am early breakfast/late supper with alicia, my neighbour from kuching (its so amazing how we're still in touch with each other despite only being neighbours for 6months when I was six and there was not facebook)
*pick up passport and drove to penang with the family.
*lunch @ tambun
*kek lok si, check-in the hotel, stroll along the beach.
*dinner @ mccallister road (foot not as good anymore). not satisfied, so we went to pulau tikus market for more hawker food (char kuey teow and mo chi is really good)
*caught up with james, ian and christine

01062013
*choir practice for eva and ken's wedding followed by wedding mass and lunch.
*popped by james new place. had the best mee goreng and pisang goreng nearby.
*college general to visit arch bishop emeritus soter and had tea nearby (susu lembu is so damn good!)
*mass 
*gurney drive to meet aunty emily (food was crap)
*head back to KL. major drama along the way. arrived at 4:30am.

02062013
*lunch @ nirwana, bangsar
*threading. last chance for a wash and blow
*dinner at home with the family
*penny came over after studying and ignatius gave a surprise visit together with vanessa.

03062013
*ignatius and vanessa dropped me at central to catch a bus but there was no bus and thankfully, i bumped into an air hostess and a lovely australian couple who were flying to perth and we shared a cab.
*managed to get a good deal on the premium seats. so comfy!! i slept through the flight.

A short conversation with Daddy on the way back from Penang when we were delayed for 2 hours, 

In 20 years time, we'll talk about this day and laugh about it.

In 20 years time, I might not even be here..I'm 58 now you know.

That's when I realised how short life really is.

On the 20th of July 2013, I would have been in Australia for 5 years.

5 years that have flown by so quickly.

Just 4 times of that 5 years would make it 20 years.

Will my kids (that I don't have yet) still have grandparents when they graduate from university?

Will I have much reason to go back to Malaysia then?

All that calculation and thoughts were running through my head.

I just sat quiet in the back seat trying to hide my tears.

Life is too short to be spent on fighting battles that are not worth fighting for.
Someone once told me, its not about the quantity but the quality for relationships you have.
I've vowed to make it a point to get rid of all negativity that come my way.
There are so many other things to work on.

During this trip, bonds were strengthened, friendships rekindled, beautiful and bittersweet memories made.
I realise how blessed I am that I have a bunch of amazing people in my life.
I'm so touched by the surprise visits, the simple thoughtfulness and for those who are working, the willingness to sacrifice precious sleeping time just to see me.

My family who welcome me with open arms.
For making a short trip up to Penang just because I wanted to go for a friend's wedding.
For taking me to places to eat the food I wanted to eat.
Daddy, for leaving me your car to drive because I wouldn't drive the other car.
Mummy, for not nagging at me because I forgot/misplace my IC and running around with me to get all of it sorted.
The list goes on....

I complain a hell lot but when I think things through, I realise, 
I am one Lucky Girl!